I'm a pretty good writer, but even so, I sometimes wonder whether I could ever be as eloquent as some of the people whose work I read.

From today's Carolyn Hax: "When honesty results in punishment, the truth tends to linger in the eaves, hoping to go unnoticed."

It seems to me that this should be obvious, but my life experiences have show that it is anything but. This was a particular factor with Fiona, inasmuch as I remember deciding to be completely honest with her about a number of things. This was against my instincts and led to my begging her not to punish me for being honest with her (and, sure enough, she did punish me, and quite thoroughly, for my honesty). Of course, such a plea accomplishes nothing with a pathological narcissist. It's like pointing out to a psychopath that they're supposed to feel guilty for doing something wrong; psychopathy itself, by definition, precludes such feelings. Similarly, a narcissist, by definition, is not capable of taking another person's feelings into account... indeed, she is not even capable of recognizing that other people even have feelings. The narcissist is a vampire, simply draining all the life possible from her victim, then discarding her victim after having no further use for him, looking for another victim.

It's kind of like what David Gerrold, my favorite SF author, said in his critically acclaimed Chtorr series: "Do you talk to your sandwich?"

We're doing a protest against Autism Speaks this coming Tuesday in Manhattan at their big Carnegie Hall fundraising concert in New York City. If any of you can join us, please feel free. The facebook page is at: http://www.facebook.com/event.php?invites&eid=205191180125 and the meetup page is at http://aspergers.meetup.com/309/calendar/11874656/. You can also RSVP to me personally at aneeman@autisticadvocacy.org. As usual, Autism Speaks is bringing out celebrities like Bruce Springsteen and Jerry Seinfeld to raise money in our name, without our permission. Help us send them a message: "Nothing About Us, Without Us!"

1. Finally got to see my friend, and spent a long time talking.
2. Was given some pink Christmas lights. I already have multicolored ones up on the walls, but I put a string of those up on a rather bare wall and they gave my apartment a really cool ambience. I have another string and will put it up somewhere when I get more hooks.
3. Having a fire going.
4. Making a lot of headway on one of the things I'm supposed to make for that meme. They're getting done one by one.
5. It snowed this morning and it was a pretty day because of it, the kind of day where the trees look frosted and clouds of sparkling snow-dust blow off them.

'Course, it wasn't a perfect day, since I got a killer headache (this one's my fault) and have been eating terrible and the cat's been gross... but it was a pretty positive day.

Whaddya think, folks? Did Aerosmith's Steven Tyler "pull a Robert Smith" in order to sell records/get his his band media hype?



***For those of who don't get the term "pull a Robert Smith", the Cure has been threatening every year sinc 1985 to break up after "this last album/this one final tour", which of course tricks rabid fans into buying albums and concert tickets.

I discovered LunarCast by accident. I just happened to be in the area and fell onto it!

Haven't been to a live set yet, but I do enjoy the mix that one can listen to at the archive. I seem to have developed a taste for ambient and mixed online music. Must go to a session sometime in SL.

 

 

If your junk turns purple, then the cockring is too tight. Remove it replace with one that's a more appropriate size.

Thank you.

I haven't posted here in a long time. I was just wondering something today.

Are there other aspies who anthropomorphize places or feel greater connection/interest in them than people?

I know the stereotypical presentation of ASD is of the person who lacks interest in having friends and is obsessed with inanimate things. In my years of reading this group, I got the impression that many if not most aspies are in fact sociable and interested in having friends. I've tried to form a desire to bond with other people because I feel it's a requirement of society in order not to seem weird or possibly threatening to others. But I find that all my human needs are met by my life partner and I can't sustain enough interest in individuals that forming friendships would require. I even had to leave a support group for aspies in my university because my lack of interest in friends or ability to bond put me at odds with the others in the group and made them hostile towards me. For some time I thought this problem was caused by depression, but I think I've mostly recovered from the depression I experienced before, and I've regained the ability to feel pleasure. I feel profound longing when I think about my cherished places.

To me, I feel such personification in the foothills, trees, sidewalks, buildings, buses, etc. Even though humans created some of these things, they seem to take on a life independent of their creators and harbor a hidden personality that most humans can't sense. I feel a desire for oneness with them, sort of like how religious people feel with their gods. Human beings mostly seem shallow and unreliable when compared to physical things. I know that most people can't or won't appreciate such things in the same way, and that I'm not allowed to talk about thm in public because I might be seen as creepy or crazy. Even among aspies I think I am a minority, so I wondered what others thought of this.

The Tarot of the Crone site has a wonderful place to go for free readings. While I might not always agree with the individual card designs (when it comes to Tarot, I can be very picky), I have used this site often for readings and found them to be both insightful and thought provoking.

One of the better 'free reading' sites I've found; thought I'd share.

Anyone playing it? I just got it and it's loads of fun.
It'd be nice to have some fellow queers to play with.